Okay, okay. I don't know how I could possibly take down that adorable picture of Rachel laughing in the header. I wanted to look at Josh and Shari when they were little, I guess. They're growing so fast. Sigh!
I look at this picture of Josh. It was taken before his CP with global delays diagnosis. He didn't get diagnosed until he was 15 months. And quite frankly, he's such a typical case that he could have been diagnosed much earlier. Sometimes I wish he had been. But mostly, I'm glad he wasn't. I had a whole year with him being nothing but a preemie. The problems he and Shari had were typical preemie problems. It was a year without labels. A year full of ignorance of what was in the future. A year I could just enjoy my son. He was just a "normal" preemie.
And what about now? Well, I certainly don't spend my time and energy wishing he were different. Wishing he was a regular kid. He's my cute little guy, and I love him for who he is. It's just that I love that year when I got to know him . . . without labels or anything to cloud how beautiful and dynamite that kid is. I think that year has helped me get through all these other years of figuring out systems, fighting for services, and the whole shebang that goes with having a special needs kid.
Sometimes ignorance really is bliss.
